tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67539535514280170232024-02-08T01:06:50.291-05:00The Thrift StoreThe title of my blog and my name comes from the idea that nothing is new. From inherited wealth to the raw materials made to use the computer I'm clacking away on, everything I own, touch, use, think about, and feel has its own history, arrived here by it's own path. Everything, in a sense, is used or second-hand. I have a tendency to write in away that chases down thoughts/actions/feelings origins. And sometimes I get lost on the way.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.comBlogger109125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-60997005504252368322010-05-29T19:03:00.001-04:002010-05-29T19:04:37.841-04:00New StartI will now be blogging here: <a href="http://athriftstore.wordpress.com/">http://athriftstore.wordpress.com/</a><br /><br />I hope you'll check me out over there!secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-38460904852057252832010-03-29T07:21:00.002-04:002010-03-29T07:24:15.753-04:00You know what I need? I need a blog to read that reminds that I am trying, that we are all here trying and that while best intentions sometimes aren't enough (or don't count for everything), sometimes "not enough" has to be enough because that's all we've got (if that makes any sense).<br /><br />So, if you are like me, and need a blog post that says it: here it is. Today, forgive yourself every time you think you've failed. And congratulate yourself on opening up your eyes, blinking, breathing in and out, and continuing to be in your body and in your head.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-11886736004572530672010-03-06T09:04:00.004-05:002010-03-06T09:43:03.525-05:00Life List Redux<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2qSjiex7VywYVq5TAE5e-WnrSlku_mupMR2LR1CF8RrAtWwDwKAKIjI99Cy54_gMpL3xtxkELSb7ClimI0WO9awvD_VThCEulKQ9MxNq6T_J-bG79kCsWT-3AEIgGuw-uYmaM1E48l6E/s1600-h/DSC00776.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2qSjiex7VywYVq5TAE5e-WnrSlku_mupMR2LR1CF8RrAtWwDwKAKIjI99Cy54_gMpL3xtxkELSb7ClimI0WO9awvD_VThCEulKQ9MxNq6T_J-bG79kCsWT-3AEIgGuw-uYmaM1E48l6E/s320/DSC00776.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5445529517028254050" /></a><br />Recently over at Shapely Prose, snarkysmachine wrote a post called <a href="http://kateharding.net/2010/03/04/the-last-dragon/">The Last Dragon</a> where she discussed giving up things that were holding her back from true fat acceptance. I really related to one of them. Earlier this year, I went out and bought pants that actually fit me as opposed to trying to squeeze into pants that fit me several years ago. <br /><br /><br />I've been thinking about that shopping trip again recently for two reason: I am so sick of all my winter clothes and cannot wait to start wearing spring stuff and I'm having fantasizes about buying clothes that fit a different body. <br /><br />In 6 months or so many friends from college will be coming back into town for reunions and for a mutual friends wedding. I've found myself scheming a lot for how I'm going to be a knockout (including losing lots of weight) by June. This morning it occurred to me how ridiculous I'm being to use the occasion of seeing friends to hate myself. My friends aren't going to care what I look like; they're going to care about catching up and whether or not I'm currently happy. <br /><br />The last time I wrote here it was to poo-poo life lists (for me, not for anyone else) because I felt that they fed into my misguided conception of my body/life as a house that needs renovations. I am not a project. I am a person. And what I need from myself is love, not improvement plans.<br /><br />Since I wrote my life list post, I returned the idea of the list and realized the problem isn't that it's a list of goals; the problem was *my* goals. I wrote one out for myself focusing on the idea that the list is to help me (1) incorporate things that I already love into my life on a more regular basis and (2) remain open to things that I think I *might* love, but have been scared to try. (The only really self improve-y thing that ended up on there was a goal to better understand my finances...)<br /><br />This week I've been working on: <br />7. Try out 50 new recipes a year.<br />23. Make a CD, preferably with bands discovered that month, once a month for a year. Distribute. ("discovered" is a very loose term)<br /><br />For my recipe goal, I am currently working my way through the soup and entree sections of the <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Vegetarian-Recipes-Cooking-Better-Gardens/dp/0696019892">Better Homes and Gardens Vegetarian Recipes</a> book and picking things out of the Best Recipes 2010 of Cooking Light. Last night I made the <a href="http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1932658">Bistro Braised Chicken</a>.<br /><br />Making the February CD was really good. It reminded me how much I like listening to new music and how much new music is out there. If you'd like a copy let me know.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-50749292029500033712010-02-02T19:40:00.003-05:002010-02-02T19:59:14.556-05:00I should probably retitle this blog to "And That's OK"My friend, who writes over at <a href="http://saepe.wordpress.com/">saepe</a>, sent me a very nice note today about my return to blogging. So I thought I would keep a good thing going and write again tonight.<br /><br />Somewhere on the internet recently I ran into one of those "bucket list" memes. Only instead of 101 things to do over a lifetime, it was 101 things to do in a year. You can see a variation of this over at Mighty Girl's <a href="http://www.mightygirl.net/mighty-life-list/">Mighty Life List</a>.<br /><br />The idea of listing out 101 things to achieve and then going out and documenting their achievement appeals to me. A lot. So much so that as I was thinking about it tonight I was thinking, why not take it to another level and plan 101 things to do in a month! They would have to be small things! But that way I would have to get started right away! And every day I would be DOING! DOING in the sense of making things happen, improving myself, getting back on track, finally figuring out this big old mess of me.<br /><br />I've lived long enough (and set myself up for failure enough) that I now know to resist these kinds of ideas. And to consider that maybe instead of doing, I should concentrate on BEING. <br /><br />For me, "doing" very quickly turns into being a way to not deal. Dreaming of transforming myself into the kind of person who runs marathons, knits blankets, writes novels, and socialize three nights a week is an excellent way to delay accepting myself for who I am. <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkHlmSw4MYgbcusocWovrK_L90rUkozP_If3BoZ3UVTBnj_KYKtSyiM2KkEzTK6nWwkktjoe8N5atUYuH4iIwfdS3TNWtlVPGsythaMEHEGd4RQOQWt7vrpHY6f6sq1l7DDER3p1DI-UQ/s1600-h/DSC00602.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkHlmSw4MYgbcusocWovrK_L90rUkozP_If3BoZ3UVTBnj_KYKtSyiM2KkEzTK6nWwkktjoe8N5atUYuH4iIwfdS3TNWtlVPGsythaMEHEGd4RQOQWt7vrpHY6f6sq1l7DDER3p1DI-UQ/s320/DSC00602.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433815341371442882" /></a><br /><br />I don't think we give people enough credit for just being. There are times when I'm going to be able to take on an extra project (one at a time, rachel!), but there are also going to be times when feeding myself, dressing, and going to work is all I can handle. No matter how many to do lists I dream up. And that's OK.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-7795511636418701772010-02-01T20:39:00.001-05:002010-02-01T20:41:41.744-05:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2_yyfsucrl5HXt43ZpyJv-UU3D5XE1t-fI50zgKGV-RI8hdYVCqbiLBg4jAFic-ZQgQ2dGvW6_fgug7yTGdAt6tAz4jgCr1KXyP5VEF5OzG0tHDJsmhuGO-daJQGa0_rCE9CBSzpn6vY/s1600-h/DSC00704.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2_yyfsucrl5HXt43ZpyJv-UU3D5XE1t-fI50zgKGV-RI8hdYVCqbiLBg4jAFic-ZQgQ2dGvW6_fgug7yTGdAt6tAz4jgCr1KXyP5VEF5OzG0tHDJsmhuGO-daJQGa0_rCE9CBSzpn6vY/s320/DSC00704.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433455302916850322" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjYVgHVdLlv7cH_87dnBg6ktkU_zWFFEhpSn4go6T3bxJEBSxTgRAo-npRW2ZojEWw42FhFEMSqBuQYTd3vjsurrUXK1RtDuKrjJmUfazcSpseR_puELXT0IfpnKV-KCn3VoPkBZTfiHQ/s1600-h/DSC00706.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 278px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjYVgHVdLlv7cH_87dnBg6ktkU_zWFFEhpSn4go6T3bxJEBSxTgRAo-npRW2ZojEWw42FhFEMSqBuQYTd3vjsurrUXK1RtDuKrjJmUfazcSpseR_puELXT0IfpnKV-KCn3VoPkBZTfiHQ/s320/DSC00706.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433455044161138386" /></a>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-67558367397133008892010-01-31T19:19:00.005-05:002010-01-31T19:25:59.852-05:00Sunday<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga1D3DDAjjQxzawttFoDkkqfdsa_hCgYSYHzRWVPKhQFRElv5fHWwiDTI6ppuPpt-TkQZo0QHHpq8tjDSvmEXoNBFiWEfz339I5wtKR7SmT7kpxEEq7ZxYnjFN9igt-6oYJ10ADlJrQZI/s1600-h/DSC00701.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga1D3DDAjjQxzawttFoDkkqfdsa_hCgYSYHzRWVPKhQFRElv5fHWwiDTI6ppuPpt-TkQZo0QHHpq8tjDSvmEXoNBFiWEfz339I5wtKR7SmT7kpxEEq7ZxYnjFN9igt-6oYJ10ADlJrQZI/s320/DSC00701.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433064535890213282" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0pvasG7uZXM0SaFaNAExtpp__mM7jck1FWebSJ5INWKG9SaygkP5f9iJfhjfdjzFyww80feJJJ07neCDAnPzA_W-WYhK59ywetdSH0F4BgrgVmjxWAEUlbtabkOQveIinbfJBLoaj_zs/s1600-h/DSC00691.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0pvasG7uZXM0SaFaNAExtpp__mM7jck1FWebSJ5INWKG9SaygkP5f9iJfhjfdjzFyww80feJJJ07neCDAnPzA_W-WYhK59ywetdSH0F4BgrgVmjxWAEUlbtabkOQveIinbfJBLoaj_zs/s320/DSC00691.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433064108458420098" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhj3a-lytmNTddsqmpYWSKyuDRecjpbEqCapZOF_dOXQ7QXpG0rip4Be5OjIAmyb-t0XXOrFzxgcoNYX7SRnYyVgCjrMT9_xbdTl85S1yk3r56LVMtr_2WqY9OIwAMmvoQTRPxy5vQHqC0/s1600-h/DSC00687.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhj3a-lytmNTddsqmpYWSKyuDRecjpbEqCapZOF_dOXQ7QXpG0rip4Be5OjIAmyb-t0XXOrFzxgcoNYX7SRnYyVgCjrMT9_xbdTl85S1yk3r56LVMtr_2WqY9OIwAMmvoQTRPxy5vQHqC0/s320/DSC00687.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433063771876738658" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDyd548cTcml5ErhV-n04BPmkp2i1-VlQWXnEuTDf6SSUqzHjKdpEUSbqxkw02KoCzhgondbUcAo2LrBTH1oHQ-SBZXJDHGF7bPK5w0r9UW3GGEZ4Lvn4Kf7DOlakFj7-xzlEfMNLz4J4/s1600-h/DSC00700.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDyd548cTcml5ErhV-n04BPmkp2i1-VlQWXnEuTDf6SSUqzHjKdpEUSbqxkw02KoCzhgondbUcAo2LrBTH1oHQ-SBZXJDHGF7bPK5w0r9UW3GGEZ4Lvn4Kf7DOlakFj7-xzlEfMNLz4J4/s320/DSC00700.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5433063377463096802" /></a>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-6239458772792602172009-11-10T19:36:00.008-05:002009-11-10T21:22:47.816-05:00Why the Internet is Not Ruining EverythingLast Thursday, the Times online published an article called "<a href="http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/comment/columnists/ben_macintyre/article6903537.ece">The Internet is killing storytelling</a>." The author, Ben Macintyre argues,<br /><blockquote>The internet has evolved a new species of magpie reader, gathering bright little buttons of knowledge, before hopping on to the next shiny thing...<br /><p>If the culprit is obvious, so is the primary victim of this radically reduced attention span: the narrative, the long-form story, the tale. Like some endangered species, the story now needs defending from the threat of extinction in a radically changed and inhospitable digital environment.</p></blockquote><p></p><p>Macintyre's arguments do not ring true to me for several reasons.<br /></p><p>First, he is unable to prove that email, texting, twittering, blogging, etc cannot exist side-by-side with more traditional forms of story-telling. In this very article, Macintyre claims that America's rapt attention to the Obama narrative this past fall indicates our "hunger for narrative." One could just as easily argue that our ability to sustain interest in Obama's life story indicates that narrative story-telling is alive and well.</p><p>Second, a story does not have to be long to be a good story. I really didn't like how Macintyre was really criticizing damage to the long narrative, but did not make that distinction consistently in his article. One might argue that our attention span has shrunk to a ridiculously short amount, making even the most simple narrative impossible to digest, but hour long dramas on television would beg to differ. Perhaps television or a four page email from Mom, isn't what Macintyre has in mind, but it reeks of snobbery to pretend that something has to be printed and the length of Moby Dick to qualify as a narrative.<br /></p><p>Third, even if we presume that narrative story telling is in trouble, I don't think that there is good evidence at all that the internet is the source of damage to the long narrative. In Claude Fisher's book, <a href="http://scholar.lib.vt.edu/ejournals/JITE/v37n4/reed.html">America Calling: A Social History of the Telephone to 1940</a>, Fisher argues "telephone company management shifted advertising during the 1920's to reflect the demands of the private consumer. Prior to this shift, managers marketed the telephone as a practical, rather than social, tool. Once they realized more Americans were buying automobiles instead of telephones, the telephone companies changed their marketing strategies to reflect the predominant use of their product."<br /></p><p>Consumers drive how content is developed and marketed. If internet technology is used to break communication down into smaller and smaller pieces, I don't think the technology that enables this is to blame. A better culprit would be societal forces that demand that people spend less and less time communicating and more and more time working or consuming.<br /></p><p>Also, it's a little weird that a newspaper article is criticizing the loss of a long-form narrative. Pot calling kettle black, dude?<br /></p><p></p>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-51472609217833864962009-10-13T22:12:00.003-04:002009-10-13T22:17:13.778-04:00follow throughCheck out Jay Smooth's video "On Being First," which incorporates a concept he discusses a couple times at <a href="http://www.illdoctrine.com/">illdoctrine</a>, The Little Hater.<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Pawk5zHVl14&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Pawk5zHVl14&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />My Little Hater tells me that I'm terrible at follow-through so why try to begin with (what a self-fulfilling prophesy...). It tells me that the things I write about are cutesy and predictable and that I fit really neatly into stereotypes. Basically, it tells me to STFU.<br /><br />Do you have a Little Hater?secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-56024213645074063032009-09-30T16:30:00.002-04:002009-09-30T16:45:59.892-04:00What the hell, Jezebel?All day long <a href="http://jezebel.com/5370535/what-was-penelope-trunk-thinking-twittering-about-her-miscarriage">this post</a> at Jezebel (regarding <a href="http://blog.penelopetrunk.com/2009/09/24/miscarriage-is-a-workplace-event/">Penelope Trunk's tweeting</a> about her relief over having a miscarriage (while at work) as opposed to going through the three week waiting period to get an abortion in her state) has been driving me crazy.<br /><br />It's this part in particular<br /><blockquote>And, unfortunately for everyone, now that this has gone national, the context and way in which Trunk framed this confirms the worst and most fantastical ideas of the anti-choice movement: that women (especially career women!) who have abortions all do so casually and callously on their lunch breaks, the way one might get a manicure.<br /></blockquote><br />Here's the<a href="http://twitter.com/penelopetrunk/status/4147262767"> tweet</a>:<br /><span class="status-body"><span class="entry-content"></span></span><blockquote><span class="status-body"><span class="entry-content">I'm in a board meeting. Having a miscarriage. Thank goodness, because there's a fucked-up 3-week hoop-jump to have an abortion in Wisconsin.</span></span></blockquote><br />What makes Lindsay think that this tweet indicates a casual or callous attitude towards abortion/miscarriage? Relief about a miscarriage or lack of regret about deciding to get an abortion <span style="font-weight: bold;">DOES NOT</span> indicate that a woman hasn't thought carefully about whether or not she wants an abortion. Neither does talking about it openly.<br /><br />I'm tired of people telling Trunk to shut up about her miscarriage or if she's not going to shut then to at least grieve. I mean how much difference is there really between a pro-lifer telling Trunk that she should cry for her "dead baby" and Lindsay telling her that tweeting about this shows a callous and casual attitude about abortion.<br /><br />My pro-choice movement isn't about advancing women's reproductive rights only if they have "appropriate" stories ("the life of the mother was at risk," "she really didn't want to have an abortion, but had to because the baby was sick," "she cried for days"). My pro-choice movement is about women having the right to choose when they're going to have children, how many children they're going to have, and how they're going to raise those children.<br /><br /><br />Please note: All pro-life comments will immediately result in a 15 dollar donation to a pro-choice organization, so please don't bother.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-74444183492785350822009-09-07T20:53:00.003-04:002009-09-07T20:59:55.897-04:00Arrived in CT around noon on Saturday. Sister et al were at the grocery store, but soon arrived. We all headed out on the boat for some swimming and sunning. Ate a late lunch and an even later dinner, BBQ ribs that Sis and her boyfriend made with a salad and read wine. Catching up before bed.<br /><br />On Sunday we lazed around the house in the morning before heading back out on the water for tubing, swimming, and reading on the boat. I tried to teach H gin, but had forgotten everything except the most basic rules, so sis had to step in. H and I made Spinach-Feta-Pine Nut-Chicken pasta with a fry-up of zucchini, yellow squash, and corn on the side. Sis taught us a new drinking game involving dice called 3 men. Lots and lots of laughter.<br /><br />Today H and I headed back to the grocery store to stalk up for the week. Now it's just the two of us as the gang had to return to their work/school weeks. We covered up the boat because it looked cloudy. Tonight we made breaded coconut shrimp and french fries for dinner. During the day I went on a five mile walk around the lake and caught up on podcasts. Tonight it's late tv and ice cream.<br /><br />A good vacation has begun.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-61171420879435297042009-09-04T11:32:00.004-04:002009-09-04T11:37:09.866-04:00On angerI used to think that I had to choose between not allowing myself to feel angry and blowing up. Now I see that there is another option: I can choose to feel angry, but control my temper. Feel it, but then let it go.<br /><br />I am still working on understanding that disagreements do not have to make me angry at all. And that losing my temper when someone is trying to tell me something means, essentially, ending the discussion. If I choose to stay calm and hear what someone has to say, the worst thing that could happen is that I still disagree, but that I understand their position better.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-83261583194523679222009-08-06T19:03:00.002-04:002009-08-06T19:07:31.797-04:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://artslob.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/lucien-freud-1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 574px; height: 472px;" src="http://artslob.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/lucien-freud-1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Painting by Lucien Freud. From <a href="http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://artslob.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/lucien-freud-1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://artslob.com/%3Fp%3D19&usg=__LrkGilmy4JM4hSHrFw-7qm-Py3g=&h=472&w=574&sz=29&hl=en&start=7&um=1&tbnid=x7ked0OTG_KArM:&tbnh=110&tbnw=134&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dlucien%2Bfreud%26hl%3Den%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla:en-US:official%26sa%3DX%26um%3D1">here</a>.<br /><br />Also, I'm reading Middlemarch and loving it.<br /><br /><blockquote>Here and there a cygnate is reared uneasily among duckings in the brown pond, and never finds the living stream in fellowship with its own oary-footed kind. Here and there is born a Saint Theresa, foundress of nothing, whose loving heart-beats and sobs after an unattained goodness tremble off and are dispersed among hindrances, instead of centering in some long-recognizable deed.</blockquote>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-71875561008756932692009-07-24T10:15:00.005-04:002009-07-24T10:30:17.109-04:00I amI have been thinking about something lately. And it's probably the result of reading a lot of self-improvement blogs. <a href="http://whitehottruth.com/">Such</a> <a href="http://www.illuminatedmind.net/">as</a> <a href="http://chrisguillebeau.com/3x5/">these</a>, that <a href="http://www.shamaniclightwork.com/pt/uploads/Butterfly_Blue_mormon_5x7.jpg">L</a> suggested to me.<br /><br />What if I retired the phrase "I am" from my vocabulary? What I mean by that is the type of "I am" that lays claim to an idea of some aspect of myself as permanent and unchangeable.<br /><br />Examples of some of the ones I've been thinking of ditching:<br /><br />I am quick to anger.<br /><br />I am not the prettiest girl here.<br /><br />I am not good at trying new things.<br /><br />I am too emotional.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivYax-2JDNci12IeNJoMtAj-ky5_0JuRxWkxIzemfrTpoEkTNRY7byhZaMIWMc1zvH0Bt3UEScVh-kYIvsfjw5G0TGWJGyzLWf29LOjBRw_cC1iYhenfkLIE68QajYJd-5I5btPngQBtk/s1600-h/dareaccepted.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivYax-2JDNci12IeNJoMtAj-ky5_0JuRxWkxIzemfrTpoEkTNRY7byhZaMIWMc1zvH0Bt3UEScVh-kYIvsfjw5G0TGWJGyzLWf29LOjBRw_cC1iYhenfkLIE68QajYJd-5I5btPngQBtk/s320/dareaccepted.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362033495694519842" border="0" /></a>Saying "I am" these things, allows me to see them as an integral part of *who I am*, things that others must accept about me if they want to be friends with me (and that I just have to accept about myself). But what if, instead, these are just ways I *can be* sometimes. Could I let go of them? Could I take responsibility for them as choices (maybe choices I am prone to, but still choices)?<br /><br />I think it seems freeing to think this way.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-38964895617534477392009-07-20T17:20:00.003-04:002009-07-20T17:23:48.480-04:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjp8I_Ix155rZAY8GYa6zhY_bXK_QE2Amq5PKphaxhz9n6VnQhHzLUTo4G4Sa5eeB0M7_ZFUCqTnz22faCcrkjoAPNkE7qTKpbW-RWCn6hnXA0pZY8k_5Wx34wfxdRIATh5phd_LyXBkPw/s1600-h/5490_123530603759_508283759_3093220_2987511_n.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjp8I_Ix155rZAY8GYa6zhY_bXK_QE2Amq5PKphaxhz9n6VnQhHzLUTo4G4Sa5eeB0M7_ZFUCqTnz22faCcrkjoAPNkE7qTKpbW-RWCn6hnXA0pZY8k_5Wx34wfxdRIATh5phd_LyXBkPw/s400/5490_123530603759_508283759_3093220_2987511_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5360656145496677426" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/OvMVCHhwTPs&hl=en&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/OvMVCHhwTPs&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-908628699023289492009-07-12T14:56:00.006-04:002009-07-12T15:42:06.006-04:00follicle talkI spent the weekend moving into my best friend's house across town. I've been gearing up for this for a long time, but the past two days were the final shove. H was a big help throughout it.<br /><br />I love my new place, my cat loves my new place, and, for this blog at least, best of all, I now have internet at home.<br /><br />***<br />Last week my sister sent me to <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2009/07/09/fashion/09Skin.html?pagewanted=1&_r=1&em">this article</a> from the NY Times, that discusses how body-shaving is now being marketed to men. I was particularly interested in two parts. Here's the first.<br /><blockquote><br />But now evidence from market research and academia indicates that more men are removing hair from their chests, armpits and groins. The phenomenon skews to mostly college-age guys or those in their 30s. Reasons run the gamut fromBecause My Girlfriend Likes It to a desire to flaunt a six-pack or be clean. </blockquote>What interests me is the unexamined use of "clean." I think it's a common misconception that body hair is a sign of poor hygiene. Seems like these guys could use a refresher from <a href="http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_body/take_care/hygiene_basics.html#">KidsHealth. org</a>, which explains:<br /><br /><p></p><blockquote>The best way to keep clean is to bathe or shower every day using a mild soap and warm water. This will help wash away any bacteria that contribute to the smells. Wearing clean clothes, socks, and underwear each day can also help you to feel clean. If you sweat a lot, you might find that shirts, T-shirts, socks, and underwear made from cotton or other natural materials will help absorb sweat more effectively.</blockquote><p></p> <blockquote>If you're concerned about the way your underarms smell, you can try using a deodorant or deodorant with antiperspirant. Deodorants get rid of the odor of sweat by covering it up, and antiperspirants actually stop or dry up perspiration.<br /></blockquote><br /><br />The very next section in this grouping, <span style="font-style: italic;">Body Hair</span>, explains, "You may want to start shaving some places where body hair grows, but whether you do is up to you. " Or, in other words, shaving is about personal preference with regard to appearance, not a hygiene issue.<br /><br />Here's the other part of the original article that interested me:<br /><p></p><p></p><blockquote><p>Plenty of female commenters online dislike suitors with less body hair than they have. As Eleanorxjane wrote about a chest-shaving video on YouTube, “i want a real man, not one that’s trying to look like he’s 12 again!”<br /></p>Having hair on one’s chest — as the expression suggests — signals maturity and boldness.</blockquote>I think this section reveals how wide open body-hair choices are for men still. Shaving is presumably to make a man's body more "consumable" for sexual purposes. Not shaving on the other hand, indicates that a man has reached sexual maturity and has positive masculine characteristics. From this article, it seems like each option, shaving and not shaving, is socially acceptable for men (what you're doing just might not be the personal preference of your current sexual partner). Each way is just one way to be a man.<br /><br />I don't think that is at all in effect for women. Women who don't shave their legs are often regarded as adopting masculine characteristics. And I wonder if the commentor above considers shaved women as representative of the fetishization of pre-adolescent girls.<br /><br />These articles are often presented as evidence that modern men face just as much pressure as women in regard to beauty standards. Its true, I think, that there is increasing pressure on all of us to conform in appearance to a narrow standard. However, shaved or unshaved, a man's masculinity remains intact in our society's eyes.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-24231863360584202952009-07-09T13:04:00.003-04:002009-07-09T13:14:17.859-04:00Again and again and again<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/LyRqdzF8swY&hl=en&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/LyRqdzF8swY&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><a href="http://imagecache5.art.com/p/LRG/7/730/Y3DZ000Z/clancy-cherry-snuggler.jpg">H</a> and I heard this song on the way back to Virginia from Connecticut last weekend and it's been in my head every since.<br /><br />******<br /><br />What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why<br />I have forgotten, and what arms have lain<br />Under my head till morning; but the rain<br />Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh<br />Upon the glass and listen for reply,<br />And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain<br />For unremembered lads that not again<br />Will turn to me at midnight with a cry.<br />Thus in the winter stands the lonely tree,<br />Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,<br />Yet knows its boughs more silent then before:<br />I cannot say what loves have come and gone,<br />I only know that summer sang in me<br />A little while, that in me sings no more.<br />- <a href="http://www.poets.org/poet.php/prmPID/160">Edna St. Vincent Millay</a>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-68735012171300673682009-05-15T15:34:00.006-04:002009-05-15T16:33:55.133-04:00It's really weird that we still call him CzarMy <a href="http://scienceblogs.com/afarensis/upload/2006/12/galago%201.jpg">sister</a> and I recently had a conversation about <a href="http://www.aclu.org/crimjustice/gen/10141res20020317.html">three-strikes-your-out laws</a> and a legal system bursting at its seams. In my opinion, one of the functions of three-strikes-your-out laws (and mandatory minimum sentencing) is to speed up the sentencing process in an attempt to unclog our courts. Sis (and <a href="http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KYgjpL1TYxQ/SPxFKnmnxMI/AAAAAAAAA0M/u6RYbJT5bFQ/s400/papi.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.beardrevue.com/2008/10/boston-baseball-beards-blow-it.html&usg=__bmq0-AW_8t4gR78gPotzxgA9X3o=&h=400&w=400&sz=32&hl=en&start=32&um=1&tbnid=SUsIoms4o2GIsM:&tbnh=124&tbnw=124&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dbeard%2Band%2Bbaseball%26ndsp%3D18%26hl%3Den%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla:en-US:official%26sa%3DN%26start%3D18%26um%3D1">H</a>) convincingly argued that it's not appropriate to ease the burden on our court system by taking short-cuts with defendants' trials and sentencing. Both of them proposed throwing more money at our legal system, but frankly, I don't think that's likely as there are a lot of things that need a lot of money right now. One of the solutions my sister and I discussed is the possibility of legalizing or decriminalizing drugs as a way to deal with judicial and prison systems that are completely overwhelmed. It turns out that recently her law school's chapter of the ACLU had hosted <a href="http://www.leap.cc/cms/index.php?name=Speakers&bio=5">Jake A Cole</a>.<br /><p align="justify"> </p><blockquote>Cole is passionate in his belief that the drug war is steeped in racism, that it is needlessly destroying the lives of young people, and that it is corrupting our police. Cole's discussions give his audience an alternative perspective of the US war on drugs from the view of a veteran drug-warrior turned against the war.<br /></blockquote><p></p> Cole is part of <a href="http://www.leap.cc/cms/index.php">Law Enforcement Against Prohibition (LEAP)</a>, which recently <a href="http://www.leap.cc/cms/index.php?name=Blogs&file=display&id=398">featured a letter</a> to our new head of the White House Office of National Drug Control Policy, Gil Kerlikowske. While the letter voices some concerns LEAP has with some Kerlikowske's statements, the Wall Street Journal had <a href="http://online.wsj.com/article/SB124225891527617397.html">a story</a> yesterday about his plan to "end the war on drugs." The article states,<br /><blockquote>The Obama administration is likely to deal with drugs as a matter of public health rather than criminal justice.<br />Already, the administration has called for an end to the disparity in how crimes involving crack cocaine and powder cocaine are dealt with. Critics of the law say it unfairly targeted African-American communities, where crack is more prevalent.<br /></blockquote>The article goes on to say,<br /><blockquote>The drug czar doesn't have the power to enforce any of these changes himself, but Mr. Kerlikowske plans to work with Congress and other agencies to alter current policies.</blockquote>I think it will take some major political capital to convince members of Congress who are up for re-election and worried about being smeared as weak on crime to get behind some of these changes, but I also think we're getting closer. Something to keep an eye on.<br /><br />Also, did you know that the ACLU has a <a href="http://blog.aclu.org/">blog</a>?<br /><br />And finally, check out <a href="http://www.thisamericanlife.org/Radio_Episode.aspx?episode=119">Lock-Up</a> from This American Life.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-41769008394144464512009-04-16T13:54:00.005-04:002009-04-16T16:29:33.795-04:00I would jump of the bridge if it was on fire (and everyone was doing it)Via <a href="http://feministlawprofessors.com/?p=10017">Feminist Law Professors</a> I came across <a href="http://freakonomics.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/04/14/friday-night-lights-and-the-teenage-virgin/#more-8297">this article</a> by Ian Ayers of Freaknomics fame.<br /><br />In the article Ayers argues that perhaps we should educate teenagers that about 50% of them graduate virgins to combat the misguided notion (held by teenagers) that all of them are doing it.<br /><br />The presumption behind this article is that remaining a virgin until post-high school graduation has some inherent value and that knowing this stat would decrease the number of teenagers who have sex pre-graduation. However, if Ayers is worried that teenagers are rushing to have (unsafe?) sex to join their peers, his own article refutes that concern (he states that the rate of teens who are actually having sex before graduating has remained the same for the past five years. As depictions of teen sex become more prevalent in our society, the number of teenagers having sex before graduation has remained the same).<br /><br />Now onto the value of virginity. Perhaps the value in virginity consist in the fact that delaying sex until college means delaying exposure to the risk of unwanted pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases. However, a campaign that emphasizes "more of your peers are virgins than you think" sounds suspiciously like a spin off of "virginity is cool so sign this purity pledge" thing.<br /><br />I think "virginity is a valid choice" has a place at the table in sex education, but in recent years marketing "virginity" to teenagers has proved to be ineffectual (and in cases where it has eclipsed comprehensive sex education, damaging), in part, I think, because it's built on the false premise that Ayers seems to buy into a bit. Ayers' reading of teenage sexuality assumes that the pressure to have sex comes from the outside, from believing that "everyone is doing it" and from seeing this reflected in pop culture. In reality, I think when thinking about sex education for teenagers we should begin from a place that acknowledges that some teenagers [1] want to have sex for the same reasons some adults do, as an expression of a biological drive, a desire for physical pleasure, and/or a need to express deep emotions towards someone. Telling these teenagers "you know, not everyone is doing this" isn't helpful. In fact, it's kind of condescending.<br /><br />When you consider that teenage sexuality is often driven by the same impulses as adult sexuality (but perhaps hindered by teenager's less developed grasp of the consequences of and risks associated with their actions) it's easy to see why sex education messages that rely on conveying the "coolness" or even "normative-ness" of virginity fail. It doesn't matter if not as many people as you formerly thought were doing it are actually doing it, if your body, mind and heart are telling you that you do want to do it.<br /><br />Our focus should be on providing comprehensive sex education and safe-sex, actively seeking consent, high-self esteem behavior models to teenagers (and the high-self esteem, seeing other people as human beings with agency behavior models should start well before teenage-hood).<br /><br /><br />[1] I say "some teenagers" and "some adults" here to acknowledge that not everyone identifies as having sexual drives.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-58180184867840241712009-04-15T13:11:00.005-04:002009-04-15T13:21:56.853-04:00Everyday is a things I like day"It is because these characters depend to such a high degree on their own sense of integrity that for them, victory has nothing to do with happiness. It has more to do with a settling within oneself, a movement inward that makes them whole. Their reward is not happiness...What James's characters gain is self-respect."<br />- <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Reading-Lolita-Tehran-Memoir-Books/dp/0965470806/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1239815675&sr=8-2">Reading Lolita in Tehran</a>, <a href="http://libwww.freelibrary.org/podcast/index.cfm?podcastID=370">Azar</a> <a href="http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=1218984">Nafisi</a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbDV2qjDUe-O1chTriQtn6gpmmuyvirYlW6moxRzX94pMm6JSWPfTYqexjTY0cEAlec6Z7NzI9Q3yh0YJIlQwQF2dT8IyU7CJk897jwLVvTSadOTvLR3F8pEZ3VyDptng1NQDk5LShurap/s400/don't_run_with_this_painting.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 333px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbDV2qjDUe-O1chTriQtn6gpmmuyvirYlW6moxRzX94pMm6JSWPfTYqexjTY0cEAlec6Z7NzI9Q3yh0YJIlQwQF2dT8IyU7CJk897jwLVvTSadOTvLR3F8pEZ3VyDptng1NQDk5LShurap/s400/don't_run_with_this_painting.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Painting is by <a href="http://carolmarine.blogspot.com/">Carole Marine</a> and she has more for sale (follow the link).secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-62840226088775130382009-04-09T09:05:00.001-04:002009-04-09T09:08:33.591-04:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVtmP84njKrjTTAksmViWgKi6xqT-2-hv9h2ZukZRFOIL5sEy8Hshq_vOUtdzMhsL2_b_kbooJvnzoy8teopF3kU33l8qlMlSoQVeawipu2lAuL32LfrcpLCQ-Sl2ev1TDMobtfiuGtg4/s1600-h/okeefe.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 289px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVtmP84njKrjTTAksmViWgKi6xqT-2-hv9h2ZukZRFOIL5sEy8Hshq_vOUtdzMhsL2_b_kbooJvnzoy8teopF3kU33l8qlMlSoQVeawipu2lAuL32LfrcpLCQ-Sl2ev1TDMobtfiuGtg4/s320/okeefe.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5322677843429511938" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br />Georgia O'Keefe <i>Summer Days</i> 1936<br /><br />Found this image in <a href="http://judoairlines.blogspot.com/">this blog</a>.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-64742957396201894052009-04-06T10:44:00.002-04:002009-04-06T10:46:50.723-04:00This tornado loves you<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/NoJku72_6HE&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/NoJku72_6HE&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Things I learned about myself this weekend: I can run ten miles in 90 minutes. I still love dogs, but prefer not to be licked. I kill plants. Dishwashers are amazing. I need very little (and a lot at the same time) to be happy.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-45456306493202490682009-02-24T15:22:00.002-05:002009-02-24T15:24:52.822-05:00What I'm Saying<table><tbody><tr valign="top"><td style="text-align: right;" bgcolor="#eeeeff" nowrap="NOWRAP"><br /></td> <td><div style="text-align: left;"> What I'm saying isn't exactly news<br />and to say it bluntly is no big deal:<br />once you decide to live, you have to lose.<br /><br />But what if you could simply refuse<br />by claiming that life itself isn't real?<br />What I'm saying isn't exactly news----<br /><br />the Buddhist think this world, hooked on adieus,<br />is just red dust. If that's true, why feel<br />that having to live you also have to lose?<br /><br />Well, because we're bodies, bodies whose<br />mortal bruise is time's kiss and time's seal.<br />What I'm saying isn't exactly news.<br /><br />The luckiest among us live in twos.<br />Yet love has tied them to a burning wheel<br />once they decide to live. They have to lose<br /><br />because time's only tempo is the blues.<br />It's what we're born to, what our prayers conceal.<br />What I'm saying isn't exactly news----<br />once you decide to live, you have to lose.<br /><br />- Gregory Orr, What I'm Saying </div></td></tr></tbody></table>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-57168378048531742592009-02-02T18:50:00.004-05:002009-02-02T18:51:53.251-05:00This is the waterI've been meaning to post a link to this every since<a href="http://throckmorton.blogspot.com/"> throckmorton</a> posted about it in the summer of 2007. <a href="http://www.marginalia.org/dfw_kenyon_commencement.html">This</a> is a commence speech that David Foster Wallace gave in 2005.<br /><br />I think about it a lot, but today, I'm thinking about this part:<br /><br /><p>The point here is that I think this is one part of what teaching me how to think is really supposed to mean. To be just a little less arrogant. To have just a little critical awareness about myself and my certainties. Because a huge percentage of the stuff that I tend to be automatically certain of is, it turns out, totally wrong and deluded. I have learned this the hard way, as I predict you graduates will, too. </p> <p>Here is just one example of the total wrongness of something I tend to be automatically sure of: everything in my own immediate experience supports my deep belief that I am the absolute center of the universe; the realest, most vivid and important person in existence. We rarely think about this sort of natural, basic self-centeredness because it's so socially repulsive. But it's pretty much the same for all of us. It is our default setting, hard-wired into our boards at birth. Think about it: there is no experience you have had that you are not the absolute center of. The world as you experience it is there in front of YOU or behind YOU, to the left or right of YOU, on YOUR TV or YOUR monitor. And so on. Other people's thoughts and feelings have to be communicated to you somehow, but your own are so immediate, urgent, real.</p> <p>Please don't worry that I'm getting ready to lecture you about compassion or other-directedness or all the so-called virtues. This is not a matter of virtue. It's a matter of my choosing to do the work of somehow altering or getting free of my natural, hard-wired default setting which is to be deeply and literally self-centered and to see and interpret everything through this lens of self. People who can adjust their natural default setting this way are often described as being "well-adjusted", which I suggest to you is not an accidental term.</p>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-53367402229063937892008-12-22T08:28:00.006-05:002008-12-22T08:45:12.597-05:00Common American Century<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqFh47xi5ptjfRdYu371qMjl63vo176AD9GjFVPUdGY11U97vTsP-y35cDjniG2zc3cwsNlOlBiPf7_zQNQYmyfXtuGPomqNHn8leoNb3DbYuGqfL-qbaXXSbS2nHY6Xzu1gWqJHHQCXA/s1600-h/luce.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 243px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqFh47xi5ptjfRdYu371qMjl63vo176AD9GjFVPUdGY11U97vTsP-y35cDjniG2zc3cwsNlOlBiPf7_zQNQYmyfXtuGPomqNHn8leoNb3DbYuGqfL-qbaXXSbS2nHY6Xzu1gWqJHHQCXA/s320/luce.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282607510707269234" border="0" /></a><br />I've recently run across the name Henry Luce in two different books. In his introductory essay ("What, then, is the American?") to <a style="font-style: italic;" href="http://www.amazon.com/Cambridge-Companion-American-Culture-Companions/dp/0521841321/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1229952582&sr=8-1">The Cambridge Companion to Modern American Culture</a>, Christopher Bigsby** writes, "When...Henry Luce declared the reality of the American Century he was merely registering the logic that had placed power, and, it has to be said, responsibility in American hands; the Project for the New American Century, by contrast, was a conscious effort to ensure that Americans remained the dominant culture." Check out the <a href="http://www.newamericancentury.org/statementofprinciples.htm">Project for the New American Century's Statement of Principles</a>.<br /><br />In Susan Faludi's <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Stiffed-Betrayal-American-Susan-Faludi/dp/0380720450/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1229952561&sr=8-1"><span style="font-style: italic;">Stiffed</span></a>, on the other hand, Faludi argues that Luce's labeling, more than being descriptive, was an effort to steer American culture (and masculinity) towards one ethos and away from another. <blockquote>"Towards the end of the war, two visions of postwar America vied for attention on the national stage in a battle over the nation's future that has long since been forgotten. One contender was [Henry] Wallace's Common Man century; the other was Henry Luce's American Century...Luce, the founder and editor of Time and Life magazines, saw America as a masculine nation whose manifest destiny was to loom like a giant on the global stage. He proposed the average man acquire a grander sense of himself by association with a nation that would dominate the world through unapologetic force. If Wallace's manly ideal was about parental care and nurturance, Luce's was all about taking control---and, even more important, displaying it."<br /><br />"Luce's 'cure'---'to exert upon the world the full impact of our influence, for such purposes as we see fit and by such means as we see fit'---would prove to be a postwar prescription for aggression."</blockquote><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI5H60R72n2yL9YiKRZqxUUpYGeiR20FuPYvs-C6NSKZGQlwnJW42USOrSmeve46QU9QDcnx7YKC4kFDeWhlo4n_BYkQCACZ_Ec47-PZtqm6_Nyqee0T88smAqKqckPO2GSekalfY8zlY/s1600-h/wallace.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 243px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI5H60R72n2yL9YiKRZqxUUpYGeiR20FuPYvs-C6NSKZGQlwnJW42USOrSmeve46QU9QDcnx7YKC4kFDeWhlo4n_BYkQCACZ_Ec47-PZtqm6_Nyqee0T88smAqKqckPO2GSekalfY8zlY/s320/wallace.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282607695482561890" border="0" /></a><br />Of Wallace's Common Man, Faludi write, <blockquote>"Wallace imagined an army of ordinary workingmen who, if given a shot a decent educations, jobs, and housing, could be a force on 'the new frontier' for expanded production, well-being, and democracy not only in the nation but throughout the world...Wallace saw America as 'a boy of eighteen' who could no longer 'avoid becoming a man by wearing short pants' and who could mature into a 'grown-up United States' by stoically 'shouldering our responsibility,' by contributing to the needs of the world rather than simply aspiring to dominate it. America's mission, he said, only half jokingly, should be to ensure 'that everybody in the world has the privilege of drinking a quart of milk a day.' He was guided, as historian John Morton Blum has written, 'by his belief in the possibility of brotherhood and the inherent virtue of husbandmen.'"</blockquote><br /><br />Ultimately <span style="font-style: italic;">Stiffed</span> is about how changes within larger structures in our country, namely, the government, corporations, and our economy, has affected American masculinity (ie, massive layoffs have done more damage to American masculinity than the feminist movement). Reading the introduction to <span style="font-style: italic;">Stiffed</span> and in particular Faludi's discussion of Luce's and Wallace's competing views for America's future couched in the metaphor of the "ideal American man," I remembered <a href="http://my.barackobama.com/page/community/post/stateupdates/gG5nFK">Barrack Obama's Father's Day Speech</a> this past summer. At the time, I remember some people felt that Obama was unfairly <a href="http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=91727635">criticizing African American fathers</a>, but reading it now, through the lens Faludi creates, I'm wondering if Obama's "ideal father" is really more of a Luce/Wallace metaphor.<br /><br />Obama argues that the ideal father will pass on three qualities to his children: (1) the "ethic of excellence" ("achievement, self respect, and hard work"), (2) "the value of empathy" ("We need to show our kids that you’re not strong by putting other people down – you’re strong by lifting them up."), (3) "the spirit of hope" (the "spirit inside us that insists, despite all evidence to the contrary, that something better is waiting for us if we’re willing to work for it and fight for it. If we are willing to believe.").<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hj1hCDjwG6M&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hj1hCDjwG6M&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Obama makes an explicit connection between father's responsibility to their children and Washington's responsibility to parents. Obama says, "[I]t’s a responsibility that also extends to Washington. Because if fathers are doing their part; if they’re taking our responsibilities seriously to be there for their children, and set high expectations for them, and instill in them a sense of excellence and empathy, then our government should meet them halfway." He then goes on to list several examples of how Washington can help parents, including reforming child support laws, expanding pre- and postnatal care to pregnant women, protecting workers through protecting maternity and paternity leave.<br /><br />I hear echos of the "Common Man." I wonder what an America of excellence, empathy, and hope would look like. I hope I get to see it.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">(**Incidentally, just a few paragraphs earlier, Bigsby also mentions <a href="http://wonkette.com/405071/obama-on-rick-warren-uhh-hope">Rick Warren</a>. "In 2002, 59 percent of Americans believed that the apocalyptic prophesies of the Book of Revelations would come true and 39 percent believed in the literal truth of the Bible. The end, it seemed, might be night, the moment when the chosen and the damned would be separated. Among the bestsellers of the new century were The Purpose Driven Lifestyle (total sales to date, 20 million), written by Rick Warren, head of one of America's five largest mega-churches and at the heart of a global religious network.")</span>secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6753953551428017023.post-54233127185996625872008-12-08T14:07:00.002-05:002008-12-08T14:16:34.523-05:00NPR has started a series called "<a href="http://www.npr.org/search.php?text=%22american+moxie%22&sort=DREDATE%3Anumberdecreasing&aggId=0&prgId=0&topicId=0&how_long_ago=0">American Moxie: How we get by</a>" about how Americans are coping with the recession. It seems like there's only been one segment so far, about a farmer who is selling his cattle because as fuel prices rise and cattle prices remain stagnant, he's losing money on them.<br /><br />I think it will be an interesting series, but I have some concerns about the title. I think the American Dream has often been misinterpreted to mean "if you work hard enough, you can do/be anything." I think that is a nice, but empty idea in our current system. It takes more than "moxie" to get ahead in America; often it takes inherited wealth, in the form of money from your parents or even in the connections they have made. I think the idea that the average Joe can pull himself up out of poverty has often been used by rich and powerful people to absolve themselves of either directly helping people or putting in place a system in the playing field is leveled. To me, the phrase "all men are created equal" requires us to protect and help our fellow man so that they can have the same opportunities that the rest of us do. It does not mean that we should be left on our own, out in the cold, to duke it out for ourselves.secondhandsallyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09441141194173534168noreply@blogger.com1